Realise for goodness sake!!!!

Hey people,sorry for not updating this blog as I was lazy to do so. OK,lets go straight to the point. Today,dad called me in his room and told me to sit and there he goes with his lectures but of course i don't ignore him because all the advise he gives I guess its for my own good. So I sat beside him listening to him and at the same time realising my mistakes and did not want to repeat them anymore.All this lectures are caused from my exam grades+PC speakers that i bought(without his knowledge).
Therefore, in that lecture i was asked a question "What are you trying to do?". What answer should i give to this question??? I was so blank. In fact,I have never seen my dad so sad in my life. He almost burst in tears and don't know from where my tears came and started rolling down my cheeks.
He also then said he was very disappointed with what I'm doing at home like blasting my PC speakers until the guards came to the house and warn me but i buat bodoh+the warning letter sent by the house management on being a nuisance in the community. After explaining that, he suddenly got very angry and told me to sell back the speakers which is just 2 days old. I just sat down quietly+freaking' out whether he will give me a slap which he did not give all these days. Imagine and see he was that angry when i myself have not seen that kind of anger in my 16years of existence.
Then,he told me a thing. He said i am the one who is suppose to be in a good position in life(a successful person) in order to help my brother(Harish) and sister(Yhamuna) to get them educated because by the time they write their SPM my dad will retire by then which he will not be able to bare the cost anymore. From that second onwards,i realised that theres a lot of work for me to be done to replace my dad's place. He again said "If you were to achieve your dreams you will have to do the best in your SPM son." and this sentence made me cry more.
From this second, I realised that I have to change from bad to good. So I am going to start studying very hard and stop all my bad habits and start or concentrate on my new dream.

by SHARVIND MOHAN PILLAI